Monday, November 12, 2007

So Many Topics...

So little time.
Blogging is somewhat of a therapy for me. (It is probably a big therapy for my husband and friends, too, in that I (might) yack a little less at them!) Lately, I have had a plethora of things to mull over through this medium of blogging, and conversely no time to do it. The result is that I am fried.

I am learning--through the cactus and glass route--that I am a mere mortal. For the first time in my life I am finding myself saying, "I just can't do it all." Generally I have been able to finagle my life in a way that I can do just about everything that I take on. I have learned not to take on as much as I used to, but even that seems to be a steep learning curve for me.

The problem, as I see it, is that I have lost my groove. I'm in a funk. Not depressed, just...well, something's not quite right. It's like a little sand in my shorts, or a small rock in my shoe...something's not quite right with Mama's world. And you know how THAT goes!

I'm deep in scripture, so that's a plus. I'm even making myself read something mildly funny and interesting that will likely not grow me in any way. I'm trying to get some exercise now and then. I don't know what it is, but something's not right in my world....Until I get that straightened out, my heart just won't be in my work. And that is simply unacceptable to me.

So! To recap: I have an unidentifiable issue that is frustrating my ability to think and focus on my work and responsibilities, which causes me to do them half way. In turn this is frustrating because I hate to "phone it in."

OK then. Welcome to the crazy train :-) Keep your arms and legs inside the ride at all times.....

3 comments:

  1. Anonymous9:39 PM

    Ah, yes, the common name for your current condition is "futless." The cure? Girls' Night Out. Early and often. I'm in.

    aloha mb

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  2. I can totally identify with the "funk" feeling. I'm in the process of "finding" motivation, joy and energy. I know what Scripture says and I know Who I need to seek, yet there's just something that isn't right...like you said. My mind feels overwhelmed and cloudy but it shouldn't. I'm thinking and praying for you my friend.

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  3. mb--yes futless is definitely in there, but it's weirder (more weird?) than that. I know I am busier than I have ever been--that's saying something. Whatever, though--I'll take teh girls' night out!

    Erin--I appreciate the prayers. I'll keep you in mine, too. Maybe it's in the air?

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